Hurt and Rejection

Hurt and Rejection

What are we really dealing with in hurt and rejection

When someones actions create a response of emotional hurt, the pain we feel is the inability to process the difference between what we assume is acceptable and what occurred. There is a painful mismatch between our expectations and the reality of what happened.

Rejection comes when others do not see us a way we want, through disapproval or non acceptance. We feel we are being shunned or discarded and it often creates feelings of not being good enough, of not being valued or wanted.”

Inherently we all want to be liked, to fit in and be part of something larger than ourselves. Being accepted brings a sense of validation that our way of being is on the right track. Those who have a broader perspective of themselves and their relationship to world they interact with, usually feel the impact of disparity and criticism less intensely..

What is known

Psychologists have long realized those with sensitivities to hurt and rejection can easily be overwhelmed by these emotions. Luckily these sensitivities can be reset and prioritized in ways more supportive to the persons overall well being, if the person is open to seeing things differently. For those where life has become too overwhelming,  extra care must be taken in helping them sort through these areas  When any set of events pushes a person too far past their threshold of sensitivity, even the small things become too much.

Raising self esteem and self worth can be a productive course of action to pursue in helping a person relate to differences more effectively.


Is it just about letting go of hurt and rejection?

The ideas we hold tightest become our greatest concerns when they turn out unexpectedly. It is difficult for those who get stuck on ideas of how things are supposed to be,  of how others should treat us,  of what is fair.  Many have constructed unconscious blueprints not allowing the acceptance of certain types of events.  When we can’t do something about the things we don’t know how to accept or if we just can’t process,  it can be painful. It is difficult to digest the unimaginable or find self supportive solutions if we can’t get beyond certain ideas or feelings .

Everyone’s level of sensitivity and interpretation skills are different. How we deal with rejection and hurt is not genetically inherent,  it is learned. Unfortunately many have never learned to effectively process beyond the interpretations of their sensitivities. It is difficult for those who do not know how to release, influence and work through areas of sensitivity. What we place importance on, how quickly we can release ideas and process emotions is what determines how easy it is to accept change.

When one can’t find resolution of way to support emotional sensitivities and perceptions , it may be time to seek help. Hurt and rejection left unchecked or repressed can lead to erratic bouts of anger. Over the long run it may lead to feeling disconnected or confused, isolated or depressed.
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  1. Tashia Kennedy

    Im in a a very bad emotionaly abusive relatonship.and its ruined my life.i just cant take always in tears.i hate myself and what ive let him do to me .please help me.

    • I know this is a cliche’, but no one is going to help you until you help yourself first. If you are in an abusive relationship and you stay in that relationship, no one can help you because you are not in a place where any help matters. If you have your back against the wall and you feel you have nowhere to turn, no money to get out, no friends that will help you, no skills that will support you, then it makes your first steps more challenging, but no one can take those steps for you. May you are just so emotionally attached to the person who is creating hell for you that you feel you can’t bare the idea of leaving this man who of course has good qualities and it has kept you from overlooking how aweful he really is, you still have to make the choice, to get out. Getting out of the relationship is always the first sign you are willing to help yourself.
      Granted this is not always easy. Youy may need to check with local organizations in your area that help abused women. You should be speaking to a lawyer in your area, because the laws very from one state to the next as to what you are entitled to and what preparation you need to make before you leave so you don’t get screwed legally.
      If you don’t take these or some other actions to get out, the feelings of self hate is some part of you that has integrity, not because you should hate yourself, because self survival dictates that you support yourself, that you get out of harms way and this part of you wants you to take action.
      Please start calling local support groups in your area and some lawyers in your area.
      No one is going to blame you for having been in this relationship and you can get over all the crap he has done. You can get on with your life and rebuild your self esteem, but get away from him ASAP. It is the first step

  2. Sangeeta Bhalla


    It seems I have reached a state where I have put a foot down to not taking any more verbal abuses. My husbands favorite phrase is: 1. two wrongs don’t make a right 2. forgive and forget.

    Now I have started giving him back, when ever he tries to abuse me verbally. When he questioned my behavior I told him to forget and forgive as two wrongs will not make a right. I told him its easy to preach, now try and practice.

    Only concern is that I feel lonely and depressed. Need to find ways to forget my husband and overcome past pains .


    • Sangeeta
      Congratulations on standing up for yourself. That takes some real courage. There is always fault in the logic of the abuser and in their mind most of the logic is a one way street. They want to dish it out but they don’t want to recieve it back.
      Of course you are feeling lonely, the two of you are not really communicating effectively. Before you stood up for yourself, your husband would push you away through his attacks and you would still stay close. Now you are pushing back, there is more distance between the two you, but you are supporting your own needs, which you need to do.
      This is a difficult step for many who are abused to accept, that in a dysfunctional or abusive relationship it is all the more important to give to yourself, because you are not getting meaningful or emotional support from your partner or you are getting some but that support is stripped away when their abuse shows up.
      Your husband does not think he has any issues, so he probably will not seek therapy. He doesn’t see that he is part of the problem, his discomfort comes soley from you in his mind. This is the fallacy of abusers, they are not willing to relate to those they hold close because they cannot really relate with their own inner turmoil,
      You will have to make up your own mind as to what you are willing to put with, how much you are willing to hold your ground, when enough is enough and what options you are willing to take.
      Hope this helps

  3. Sharanya

    I am in a state of extreme hurt and rejection and feel cheated by my so called brother.

    I meet this person during my collage days, He was initially very nice to me and friendly. He started saying I feel like being your brother and once changed his name as “my brother” in contact list of my mobile. I asked permission of my parents that so called person is being very affectionate and is saying he feels he is my brother.

    At the same time around I was in love with another person who was very possessive and would not let out of his clutch but never planned to marry me…. This boyfriend always wanted sex and used me whenever he would feel…
    I was in my teens when I got trapped in this relationship and hence while graduating understood it was not a right thing I was doing to myself.
    I always felt it is immoral to have sex before wedding but since loved this guy so much that I gave to his sexual needs. While this relationship was going on a rough patch is when I met my classmate( so called brother).

    Once it so happened that ” my brother” so called, picked my boyfriends call. When my boy friend asked for me,,, this person instantly said “she is with me”….. this triggered my boyfriend and he shouted at this person. I had not introduced them to each other yet. Ever since this incident my boyfriend hated this person and never accepted him as my brother,,, he would get angry more and our fights got intensified.

    It so happened that my brother started showing a lot of affection and supporting me and advised me to get out of this relationship,,,,
    I finally asked my boyfriend if he was able to accept this person and my brother and that my Parents have accepted him as my brother and own family,,,,But he could not accept it. I used to try stop talking and than fall back again. this happened several times.
    Since I also was in a dilemma and felt bad and guilty of these sex things I took my brother’s words and advise very strong told my boyfriend to get married to some other girl( He readily moved on). In then meantime, I communicated to my brother that we broke up,,,, but I was still in the process of break up. But when this got to know I am speaking to my boy friend again he got very angry abused me in terrible words that a brother does not to a sister.

    Although I asked my boyfriend to move on in life, I from within could not get out of the relationship…. It so happened that my boyfriends wedding got fixed,,,, after this I have panic attacks, anxiety and so on, fell in depression and was in terrible state…. We went to an extend that my family along with this brother asked hime if he could stop that wedding and marry me, He did not agree saying sot of bad things.

    In the meantime I only took this brother’s help and advise to cope up with the break up. this brother showed so much affection that I felt comfort in him,,,, But I don’t know what happen this so called bother,,,,, Slowly he started getting physical and say he is helping me forget my boyfriend and so on and so,,,,,, this became another trap for me….. trying to come out of one and fell in a bigger problem….

    It went on for sometime, soon I realized that this poor brother trying to helping out or whatever thought she is used by a guy already and he could also get away with her,,,,( I don’t know if Iam right) because he also was very affectionate… He would do anything to keep me happy. I got very attached to this brother that even though he has sex with me I would with guilt from with in tell myself to forgive him( Which I know was wrong and bad from myside too,,, but dont know why and how it happened I fell. I some how tried to explain indirectly to stop doing this to me but he would ignore it.

    Finally this brother’s wedding got fixed and I was happy on oneside that he would no longer depend on me or need me for sex,, ans that only affection would left for me, on the other side I started having anxiety again of being left alone and rejected in life,,,, but somehow settled in.

    Since this brother loved me a lot and was very very affectionate, I tried and forgave him. Now during his wedding time he started hiding from me and talked to his wouldbe only when I was not around,,, ( this i sensed and found it)I used to feel bad but let it go. After his wedding, his wife was diagnosed for Cluster B, BPD and He lived with her only for 4 months.

    I supported him and equally showed affection to him in return during his crises time. She accused him of being impotent and tried to isolate him from em or infact his mother too and it was part of her illness…… He really went through a bad patch. He sent he back to her parent and was in the process of divorcing her, Suddenly morning I have severe stomach ache and went on to be diagnosed for ovairian cancer( I suffered during my treatment). A yr before my mother had breast cancer and was very traumatic for us (With the grace of god she survied) I started holding on to my this brother( truely in very good sense)…. I during my treatment had lost any hope of a wedding or sex,,, I thought and thanked god for just blessing me to see life once more.

    My affection intensified and got very dependent on this brother…. “He promised to take care of me and my future if I did not get married” and also kept on giving me hope that He would not get married again and take care of my life only”

    This hope went on to be very deep in my heart that I will be taken care off,,, In the meantime he kept in touch his wife after divorce thinking someday she will realize and come back to him. on the other side forced me for sex just after I resumed my periods, since this time he said he will not get married again I also agreed to it slowly.

    Now the current problem for me is he started looking for second wedding and hiding from me and meeting new proposals and always moody when he see me and fights and get irritated with me… I am however now for treatment for depression and anger,,,, but somehow feel not okay,,,, I am slowly able to accept that he wants to move on in life… but I feel that my future is in dark…. I feel he also used me for is sexual needs and now throwing me out….. I feel very low, left alone I get very angry and moody too, I have a lot of emotional out bursts and cry profusely,,,,, I have lost sleep for long time thinking of my sickness and now worsened after this person is rejecting me,,,,

    He says he does not think that ways,,, and he will still stake care of me as a brother but I feel very hurt that he used me sexually and financially and the reason I feel like that is because of his change in behaviour. To an extent that he has gone to his hometown to meet a girl for proposal by completely hiding from me. This feeling is making me feel so bad that, How could he hide? why is he not being transparent? why am I being avoided when asked for reason for getting irritated and being moody? I apprently got to read his email to the proposed girl, where in the mail he has written he seem to be happy on the otherside he is so moody and does not feel good about me being around….. I feel so bad and sad about this that I cant explain my pain. I feel I stand in darkness and do not know where I stand. I feel like lot of roads and I stand alone not able to see sign of light…… I cant not explain further

    I hope this not too big a post, please help me, I don]t not wish to falling to any other bad decision because I know I got 2nd life after surviving Cancer,,,,,, Is there any way that I can get out of this emotional abusive life….. Is it all that I have to go through,,,,, I do not know….. I am in desperate need of help…. Please

    • There are so many dynamics in this post, it is hard to effectively address your situation in a post. However, you need to redefine your ideas about relationships and sex, because your current ideas are not supporting you as a person. Having sex is not the same as having a relationship. While sex is usually part of a healthy relationship, the ability to relate to someone has little to do with a physical act. Having sex can bring intimacy, but the act of sex on its own, without establishing a health way to relate to the other person leads many to misread the emotional stirrings within.
      The “so called brother” seems to have relationship issues also, so I would not put to much stock in his actions. You need to work with a counselor, someone who can help you sort out where you stand with yourself and your relationships

      • Sharanya

        Hi Michael,

        I totally agree with you that there are too many traumatic situation I had to go through.I also agree and understand that I need to understand what is needed in good relationship of siblings.The sex things went out of my control…. Well now I am clear about it.

        But what I broadly need to know from you is, Am I in a emotional abusive relationship? I panic when I think that I will loose my brother, so I adjusted even if he would hide from me, or lie. His coarse of actions are not all in line with what he promises to me.
        He makes me feel that I will stop his new relationships, but its like that I am sad and worried that I will be left alone.

        I have helped him come out of this abusive relationship, I pledged all my gold gave lakhs of money during his need,,,,, during those times he was very calm….. and during sex will say that u are enough for me and used to be too intimate. even during this times little did I know that he was is contact with his ex wife.

        After understanding that I somehow tried my best to avoid physical contact… But why does he emotionally abuse me that I am burden now? what do I do to get out of this fix?

        I have forgiven my ex boyfriend,,,,, and moved on but please help me understand my current situation and what needs to be done to lead a calm and peacefull life. When ever I see him I remember the way he acts in front of me. Michael Please help in advise.

        God bless

        • michael

          First you need to understand what you are doing, which is you are trying to hold on to someone while they are pushing you away. The fear of losing someone should never override your need to have dignity and self respect, otherwise you lose yourself and that is a terrible place to be. Overcoming this fear and building your self esteem will help you avoid similiar situations in the future.
          As for why this guy is pushing you away and treating you as a burden, is because he feels discomfort around you. He no longer knows how to process the relationship the two of you had. There is no reason for you to take the blame for this, relationships of any sort are a two way street, both parties contribute. He has his issues. The great misunderstanding many people have that if you are attracted to someone, in love with someone, if you share intimacy, if someone tells you something beuatiful about you, even if it is repeated over time, that there is some form of binding connection or promise that holds the two people together.
          To have a healthy relationship, both people must have a healthy relationship with themselves and their own feelings. Their ideas must be able to support each other, not just in words but in action and emotions. Both people must be able to deal with their own emotional states when things feel different. What someone says during intimacy may not be how they feel when they are not feeling intimate. People are not that consistent, not that predictible, unless the person is extremely stable. This is why you earn someones trust, by seeing how far their emotional boundaries swing, how do they handle stress. When he is calm he will be different then when he is not and he will say different things. He is confused, he is not stable. While he has positive and charming traits, it is not the whole picture of him, he has his downsides and you are not accepting this. You expect that if he tells you something it is always true and that is a fantasy on your part. He has shown you stability is not how he is, but you want to overlook it and hope that the image you have of him, the way you want to see him will never change. He can only love you based on his ability to love and how stable his emotional states are and he has shown you he is not that stable. Either accept he will be a rollercoaster ride to be around or realize your relationship with him is not what you think it is. I would pick the latter

  4. How to i reboot my emotions and my fearful mind . I just want to stop all the pain ,fear, negativity. Loss ,rejection . I just want healthty , happy ,excited about my future mind set. I cant keep going on in this very sad world of pain that my mind keeps replaying ! Please give me some tools so that i can move forward to a positive good way of thinking !, im isolating. I wish it was as easy as just saying STOP IT ! If u could give me steps to take i will practice with all my heart to change my thought,mind,emotions to free myself from this painful bondage.. thank u for your time coco

    • Coco
      I wish there was some simple exercise or set of techniques that were easy to follow that would allow everyone to change and reboot their fears and emotional discomfort
      There are many reasons people get locked up in fears, anxiety and negativity and many reasons people have difficulty getting out. Tools and techniques can just as easily be used for more destruction as they can for rebuilding and creating anew.
      If you seriously want to change, you should work with someone, someone who can help you uncover the root reasons you are feeling as you do and at least get you started towards a path of better living. Check around what is available in your area. If you can’t find anyone, phone consultations can also be an option for you

  5. im not sure if im the abuser or the victim or both, but i feel a hatred towards myself i did not feel before him. It is probably not his fault but the lack of physical contact is getting to me, and i dont trust him. how do you leave somebody you have loved for so long? I feel like life lost its meaning, but at the same time i cant go on like this. its killing me. I strive to get his attention and he seems to feed off not giving it to me. I need to pack my bags and go, but it will be the hardest thing i have ever done.

    • Relationships never work if they are a one way street. Relationships require both parties to put in adequate effort so the process of communication, relating, understanding, love, etc can exist. If only one person is giving, then you don’t have a relationship. If you give love to someone who is not returning it, then you are living in a fantasy, you are not accepting the situation as it is. If you want him to be different without you accepting how he is and you making the needed changes to support yourself, you area not accepting how things are. You cannot change him, only you.
      This is a difficult perception for many people to realize or get to. They live in there emotions, in what feels like the way to react even though they do not like the results or trust their own emotional signals.
      You know if nothing changes, the pain will only continue or get worse. Leaving is also painful. If you have tried counseling or he refuses to go, then you have to put yourself first. He is not taking care of you and you are not taking care of you. The two of you are no longer a team, you are not supporting each other enough and most likely tend to rip each other apart all to often. There comes a point where the only real failure is staying in the environment producing the pain. The only real hope is to give each other the needed space so you can both reset yourselves and give your life some options to be different.

  6. I was in an emotionally, physically, and verbally abusive relationship for 3.5 years now with the father of my child which is now 9 mos old. I left him about two weeks ago because he claims that’s what he wanted he is there for our daughter which I’m thankful for but he wants a relationship with me again…mind you he always tells me to leave then come back which I assume is the emotional abuse. As much as I miss him and really wish he would want our family together I know it’s not in the best interest for our daughter. But each day that passes by I find it so hard to get over him I feel as if I need to have him around but deep down I know I shouldn’t. I want to get over him because he was extremely abusive I know I don’t deserve that and my child doesn’t need to see it either. I used to be full of self esteem, confident, outgoing, and respectful to myself but now all that is gone. I just want to be me again I need the strength to help me be strong for my baby but I can’t find it. Any advice please? I’m ready to change just don’t know where to start. I don’t want to be under his control anymore I want to be happy without him.. Thank you in advance.

    • Ashley
      It is a challenge to untangle oneself from someone you have been emotionally connected with. You have to focus in on the abuse, on the negative sides and stop trying to balance it out with the positive things you see in him. He is not going to change, so your life with him is about as good as it is ever going to get and most likely only get worse.
      You don’t need to know more than you know, but you do need to get upset that you are being treated poorly. If you don’t feel it, you will probably put up with his crap. You need to be able to feel and maintain the pain in a way that has you pushing away the repetitive cycle he create in your family
      If you can’t do this, seek help so you can find ways to make the move

  7. Can you give me advice on the following? My son, who is 23 has been emotionally abusive for some years now…always to women, whether girlfriends, or myself. His father was killed in an accident when he was 16 and unfortunately their relationship was not wonderful, as he was distant, cold and in a subtle way degraded us, he pushed his son very much to the side. My son has always been a bit “outside” of borders, very intelligent, but emotionally immature, but in trouble often and manipulative. He lived with my new husband, who was kind with him, and I for a couple of years and then went to study in the European country of his birth….he quickly got together with a beautiful, though damaged woman, thirteen years older than himself and they spent almost a year in a rather volatile but sometimes happy relationship (according to them both). After a physical altercation my son was told to leave the shared home and there is a court appearance pending at which his ex will support a verdict of therapy for my son. After the break up he returned to live with us some months ago and seemed somehow re-born, sweet natured and happy with small pleasures, in a way he had not been since he was a small child. After a couple of pleasant months he received some news of the pending case, and lied to us by saying it would go to mediation (this could still happen but is now in the hands of a judge) He then started to drink heavily and criticize me, continually watching my every move. Eventually he blew up and left our home to stay with his grandmother in the country where he grew up. He has written more and more extreme mails, in answer to very occasional ones from myself…and now, in answer to my question if he needs me to cover a lawyers bill could he ask me in a decent manner, (having written to me that I have never given him anything but money, which of course is not the whole story!) he has said he would rather die than let me “buy” him and I am out of his life for good. During the last months he started blaming his “terrible childhood” for all of his behavior, which included stealing a great deal of my money (including the golden handshake I received after I ended my university career) during the year following his fathers death, and included also lying, playing seriously with drink, drugs and medication. He also has inflated ideas of his own brilliance and degrades others intelligance, whilst not working hard and showing poor results in his own studies. Attempts by myself, but also his most recent girlfriend, to help him included some therapy, and seemed to be having some positive effect, but this most recent total break down and utter rage is the worst episode until now, even though it is part of a pattern the last six or seven years. As an adult he does not need to take help if he does not wish to, but as a mother I am afraid for his future and that of a new partner. He is very charismatic and good-looking so it will not be long before he finds another victim for his anger. I am of course also extremely hurt by his recent total rejection, I feel as though he has died, and I am panicking at the thought of never seeing him again, which is his threat. I have certainly offered the very best of what I could to support him (many would say too much!) Can you help me with any insights into this horrible situation? I would be very grateful.

    • There are many dynamics at play here and I know there is much more to this story, so any attempts to explain your sons behaviors would be inaccurate, other than to say he has unresolved issues, is deeply conflicted about himself, his identity, his past and how he can process his emotions.
      You know has an adult he gets to make his own choices and this is troubling for those who love him because his model of how the world should operate is not in alignment with how it really does operate. While you want to the best for him, you will want to work on changing the only thing you can change, yourself and how you hold your relationship with your son. That is not what most mothers want to hear in these situations, but you know you cannot run his life, you know you cannot change the mind of a son who is trying very hard to distance himself from you.
      You have done your part in raising him. There were things that happened you had no control over and there is no point in looking back at what could have been done differently. Your job is to live your life and if you stay overly attached to how could behave in the future, you will end up living his life and not yours
      Should he want to change himself at some point in the future or if he changes his desire to have a different relationship with you, it will start on his terms and you can be open to that if that time occurs. Until that time you have little recourse.
      Wish I could offer something more hopeful, but acceptance of what you can control is sometimes the best answer to situations

  8. Christine

    I am in an emotional turmoil right now. I left my husband of 46 years two months ago. He drank heavily almost every day of each of those years. He alternated between being chummy and emotionally abusive all of those years. He felt entitled in our relationship in a lot of ways but having his dinner served by 5:30 is one example. I felt “taken to the woodshed” many times for things I would do wrong like choosing to paint a room, or staying at a store too long when I should have been home preparing his dinner. He criticized me often about things he knew I was sensitive about saying things like”Everybody is laughing at you behind your back “, or “All the other wives do X, BUT NOT YOU!!” He was discourteous and railed all the time with negative judgements about other people.
    Well, since l’ve left, he has made a huge turnaround. He is forty some days sober, admits he’s an alcoholic, admits he treated me badly and is begging for me to give him another chance. We attended a couple sessions with a marriage counselor which ended in walking out of the second session. He decided the counselor was too expensive, unprofessional, and the workbook was rediculous. I began feeling that even though he is sober, refraining from here to fore common criticisms, kind and attentive, there are some spots that are still the same.
    Now, to make matters worse, he has started to really press me for a decision to come back now and call off the dogs or he will be renting an apartment a few blocks from our daughter (only child). He claims that he is in so much emotional pain from me leaving that he cannot go on living here in Florida. Our daughter lives several states away. My daughter has really not reached out to me and is obviously throwing her love and support to my husband. I think she is delighted and proud of her dad’s sobriety for one thing, but I know it is more than that.
    So my decision to either end my marriage or to go back and give my husband “another chance “has been weighted by the hurt I will continue to experience if I don’t, as I am frozen out by my family. My husband will get to be part of all activities with our one year old grandson while I will get to visit a couple times a year and look at the pictures on Facebook.
    Thoughts and advice please.

    • Any seperation can be painful and difficult. But staying in a disfunctional relationship is even more painful. Your husband only wants change on his terms, which means he doesn’t want to make the effort to make any real change in himself. He is not going to change on his own and since he has excuses for not seeking help, he can justify he is right. Substance abusers have difficulty owning their own responsibility, they don’t see how their pain can be anything other than the fault of something or someone outside them.
      Here is what will happen if you go back to him. He will be nice for awhile (short onr at that) and then he will go back to his old ways, blaming you for not being supportive. You cannot fix him, he can only change himself. He hurting at the loss of you, meaning him having what he wants, but as soon as you come back, that hurt is gone and his motivation to change gone with it

  9. Betty-Ann Donison

    I had a situation at my son’s wedding. Two of my sisters were there for the ceremony and then just before supper was announced they said they were leaving. One of my sisters was very angry at me and my son because my son didn’t put her partner’s name on the invitation. I can understand her hurt. I don’t understand how both sisters can just up and leave and I’ve felt very hurt over this. I have another sister, who didn’t attend, though she had been at her husband’s nephew’s wedding the week before. I’ve always been close to my sisters and have helped them through many situations over the years. I would never have thought my sisters would be so cruel and I am the type of person who would never do that to them. I just can’t let it go as I feel so hurt.

    • Betty-Ann, family dynamics can be complicated and seldom play out the way we want. I understand your hurt, no one wants to go through this type of ordeal, but I also might be led to believe that the relationship you and your sisters have may not be as solid as you think. Now there could be some rational explanation to their leaving, but you would only get that answer from them. If there is no such rational reasoning, then you have to ask, why are you surprised, after all actions speak louder than words. That you would not do this to your sisters speaks of your character, not theirs, but that you can’t believe they did this either means you have been overlooking traits they have, you don’t know them as well as you think or that you are not seeing the entire picture of this event.
      I would see if you can sit down and have a chat with your sisters, together or one at a time. If their reasoning is what you interpreted at your sons wedding, you will have to change your expectations and reality about this relationship

  10. I am a grown 48 year old single woman who is a recluse, a real life hermit. Due to health conditions I have been unable to drive for 22 years. After a severe car wreck I was in at the age of 17, many changes occurred, physically, mentally and emotionally but the one constant thing has been no bond, no closeness with my mother. I have not had any friends since I was 18, due to my sustained head injury I had much trouble remembering in detail the person I was before the accident. My 2 best friends and I had a falling out and every since the age of 18 I have had no friend, have had much trouble with trusting ppl and am very stand-offish, honestly not knowing how to be a friend. My big concern is my relationship or lack of relationship with my mother. We have never been a tight knit family, I never received encouragement to succeed in anything..merely the opposite. I have always felt I haven’t lived life, I have felt that Mom controlled and lived my life as she wanted. In my adult years this has worsened so much more. For decades I have felt she despises me. I have asked her to go to therapy with me to work on our relationship because I want so much to be close to her, to have a mother/daughter bond but she refuses saying to me that she isn’t the ‘crazy one’. I have been so emotionally abused by the one person I love so much yet she ignores me, takes jabs at me, calls me names, makes fun of me. I truly feel she gets a type of enjoyment when she knows I am desperately crying and always alone. I have to depend on her for transportation to a grocery store and to my doctor appts., and I go into severe panic attacks a couple days before I know I have to go to the store with her or to a doctor appt because I fear knowing exactly what will happen. She will curse at me, she will threaten not to take me which has happened many many times. She knows she is my only means of transport and many times she won’t take me to the store and she will not take me to my very important dr. appts which has caused much trouble regarding many of the doctors. I was diagnosed with a stomach disease 1 year ago which puts me in unbearable physical pain. I have had many different specialists tell me to go directly to the E.R. when the pain gets so bad, but I still feel like I always have to get mom’s permission before calling 911. 9 out of 10 times she tells me to go ahead and call 911 but she isn’t coming to the hospital to bring me back home. Since my diagnosis, the only change has been my mom ignoring me MORE, hollering at me, and forever blaming me. She talks about me in negative ways regarding her sisters and her friends, making certain they do not like me or would ever help me. I was blessed with 3 little shih tzu dogs that i loved with my whole heart. I had them since their first breath and was there when they took their last breath. My last baby died 1 year ago at the age of 18. I have never stopped grieving them. They taught me love and loyalty. They were true angels to me. All I have now are walls to stare at and memories I cherish of my fur babies and knowledge of suffering such horrible abuse from my Mom whom I still worry about her health, pray so much for her. I beg my mom just to text me but when she does it’s always her taking her frustrations out on me, always blaming me for me a nobody, always saying that noone likes me and noone ever will and majority of time she will end texting, and if its by verbally talking on the phone, she goes out of her way to tell me how concerned she is about my cousins who are my age if they are sick, disregarding that my disease is killing me and EACH TIME she hangs up on me. I have nothing to look forward to in this existence I’m in. I don’t miss a closeness to my mother or other ppl which include a brother and sister because they follow mom’s lead and there is no communication EVER. I can not miss something I never had. I am so tired of being an emotional punching bag and I have talked with therapists all through my life but was always too ashamed to tell them the true treatment by my only blood family. Mom has controlled me for what seems to be my entire life. I do not want PITY, but I am a human and would appreciate some empathy. I only want to go to one place, I want to be walking beside Jesus and my lil fur babies. I feel I have no options now. My life is fading away and not a person in the small “family” cares enough to even call me. I’ve dealt with this pain for so long……am only looking forward to going home.

    • Michael

      First thank you for sharing your story. I am hopeful you will now do this with your therapist. You can’t get help if it is not acknowledged. You don’t want pity but you also don’t want to be abused, which means the only person you can rely on to make changes in your life is yourself. This starts by talking about it with your therapist. You are in a tough spot, relying on someone who seemingly does not enjoy being relied on. So again this means you rely on yourself a bit more.

  11. I have just read your story. You are an endlessly brave and strong woman. You seem to be a very good person and this life you’ve found yourself in is not worthy or deserving of yourself. You deserve so much good to come your way. I really hope you tell your therapist your story. If you have access to the internet perhaps you could search for guided meditations. Practicing meditation may help you to step away from your thoughts, relax a little, and gain a bit of outside perspective on the situation. You are so worthy of a better quality of life and I really hope light finds you and you get some proper support.

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